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She allowed herself ten seconds of silence at the sound of garage door opening and closing.

After, she opened her eyes and shut down her computer, straightened her desk and rose from the office chair to move to the kitchen.

She checked on dinner, tucked a few more plates into the lower drawer of the dishwasher and wiped down the counter.  He opened the door, an hour later than planned and dropped his briefcase on the bench.  He gave no response to her welcoming smile and inquiry about his day outside of,  “Eh. It’s work,” and then a quick stop to rifle through the mail on the table and a walk to the bedroom to change after stepping out of his dress shoes and kicking them under the same bench.

She moved across the tile, gave him a hello hug and whispered a “Happy Friday,” in his ear.  His brow remained furrowed and she resisted the urge to ask him if he’d had a bad day.  She stepped back and settled her smile into its place and stopped herself again from asking, “What’s wrong, honey?”

She finished the sauce for the asparagus and checked the timer on the front of the oven, then walked onto the patio to bring in the steaks waiting under the grill cover.  She finished the sauteed mushrooms and plated all for him and brought it in to the living room with a big glass of milk.  He had thrown on his rugby t-shirt and a pair of black mesh shorts and lay sprawled in front of the television.  He looked up and smiled and said thank you and looked around the curve of her hip to catch the update on the Tour de France.  She apologized for not bringing him the steak knife and turned on her heel to return to the kitchen.

It was 7:38 and she was late for book club which was on the calendar right between the appointment for her job interview with Clay & Co.,  and just after the red X meaning her period was due last Sunday.

She took the clothes from the washer and transferred them to the dryer, pulled his jeans off the line and carried them back upstairs to the closet.   He asked for more milk and she brought him a refill. He eyed her breasts falling out of the top of her maxi dress and made a pass at her by way of suggesting she might lean over and put the milk on the table one more time for him.

It wasn’t what he said, or how he said it but more how late she was in getting on the road and the 20 minute drive across town to Karen’s on top of the wrestling with herself over whether it was easier to just stay home or to deal with the silent treatment for the next three mornings.   And then came the pat on the sofa next to him and her knowledge of the impending failure of her ability to pass the test of choosing him over her friends that made her mind claw the air for the words to tell him that this was just a couple of hours with friends and the ease of having the big kids at the neighbors, the house is all in order and she has a long drive to get to Karen’s on the East side.  “Oh, all the way to the East side? And there will be wine and is someone going to drive you? No? Don’t take a chance and drink and drive.” And the, “When did you say you’d be back?” And the kind reminder, “Don’t stay out too late, like last time, I fell asleep and the door was locked and the entry lights were out and you didn’t want to ring the doorbell and wake the baby.”

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She looked into his eyes and stood up a bit straighter.  

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Postcards and Cork

RMPredmailboxEmpty mailboxes and blank postcards share no details.

Everyone counts on these facts.  This she knew.

That summer of ’44 she was blogging for a food and wine touring group.  She packed light, just the necessities; a few summer dresses, tanned and toned thighs, a comfortable pair of aviators.  On her fingers she wore several of her sterling silver rings.  In the bottom of the bag she tucked some hiking shoes and climate gear for explorations and in the last minute she threw in her flats and changed into a pair of black strappy sandals with the zip back and low heel.

Everything else she planned to buy in the local shops. What she didn’t have would give her reason to go into town and meet another shopkeepers, to track down another pretty place.  She never tired of  smelling of fresh basil and ripe tomatoes and wet earth in the markets.  On her shoulder she hung her laptop, on her hip her iphone, and all the necessary charging equipment and manuals and a box of beeswax candles rounded out her carry on.

They met in the farm kitchen around the cold stone slab where the owner was teaching couples how to seal the edges of the ravioli with milk and bind the layers with gentle fingertip pressure.  He stood behind her and slipped his hands under her arms, intentionally brushing against her hips with his lower arms and settling in with his chin casually bumping her temple and his hands mimicking her moves with the dough.

Months later, months that felt like days, she returned home and intentionally placed into the bottom of the middle drawer a faded picture postcard of the Umbria villa, and underneath she tucked the cork from the fat-bottomed bottle of Sangiovese they filled over and over at the local bar on those long sultry nights of one brief  but unforgettable summer of travels.

Neither had ever been discovered. Both had been touched.

This morning, the morning air was damp and cold, carrying the dirt smell of fat earthworms  announcing the spring temps just a few degrees warmer than the winter of the previous week.   Everyone felt gratitude and almost harbored a hunger for the sweat from the sun and the blinding blue skies.   It was the time of year when skirts and sandals need to be worn mid-day but the mornings still flaunted the power of ice and dared the bare skin to expose itself to nature. The body had to pull a sweater tightly across the chest and grip a warm mug of coffee, keeping the the steam rising to warm the chin and with each sip the taking warmth to the belly for safekeeping.

Every year when the very first day of humidity returned she felt the unstoppable pang of wanting for summer in Italy.

She reached under the slider and in the center of the old chest of drawers and carefully scooped up the cork, put it to her nose, and found her self strangely saddened in finding no trace of the red, no reminder of the hours of  merry making and loud conversations shared across little tables lit with the crooked, spitting, dripping candles.

She looked at the postcard wedged into the small space and as she traced the craggy line of the cliffs down to the sandy beach,  she thought she was prepared for the stillness radiating from the cardboard scene.   She found it odd no hint of the sea and certainly no spray touched her face when she took a minute to reconstruct the simple days they’d created while exploring the beaches and the sea together during that lovely summer.

Yes, it had been a long time ago.  But it happened. It really did. This was the proof.

She turned over the  photograph, and audibly sighed when she realized the half-scribble half-printed mesage was missing from the reverse.   As she flipped the postcard in her fingers, she felt a piece of her had gone missing but had been surrounded and captured in her throat when she found his penmanship smudged and crammed on the back of it.  His words shaped her vision of the rest of the Italy she would never return to see, and his words vibrantly painted the scenes of the Europe and later Russia and the Netherlands and half the world she had cut off the idea of ever visiting.

The postcards arrived haphazardly in the post box over the years, sometimes a handful at a time,  all dropped into the care of some family he had visited. Sometimes,  when he neared a bigger town, a few would be left at a random post overseas.

Sometimes there’d be nothing delivered to her red box for weeks on end, and she’d rest her mind believing if there were none, he must have finally settled in, settled down, settled for another life.

And just when she was sure she could forget about him, his words would be staring back at her from the dark mailbox.  She’d pull open the metal door at the end of the drive, and one would be there,  standing straight up, always affixed with more postage than needed and always decorated with his signature quarter note and the letters DEF penned in next to it.

As she pulled each card into the light she found the colors of local parades and church processions with gold crosses shone off the paper.   Over the next year, she grew familiar with the advertisements for local wineries touting flavors and soil specialties of the regions of Italy.   She enjoyed countless scenes of cobblestones and church altars and tiny cottages on green hills.   One year,  he’d written so many tales about his travels, his trips to the mountains, to the sea, to the little fishing villages and to the vineyards and the villas she thought she could certainly open a tourist shop and sell pining young travelers glorious trips abroad.

One place after another,  he made time to share snippets of his journey, the meeting of the local growers, his awe at the shared confidences by men who learned the secrets of the vine from old men, men who had inherited the cellars and the casks from great great grandfathers.

She could see him laughing in the sunshine, soaking up the lore and planning his return trips through the same valleys so he could meet with these new friends again.

As each postcard arrived she read it over and over,  drew lines with her index finger on the fading map she had hanging above the mantle and with this simple process she learned how far he had gone, what direction he traveled and how long it might have taken him to get from the previous stop.  Over her years, the matted and framed boot of Italy had moved from house to house as her life took its place over her dreams.

Later, when Italy had taken its fill of his questions the postcards came from random countries.  Each post card sent traced his reckless drive to see the countryside and touch the coastlines.  She followed through the postcards,  his crossing of borders and waters and city limits.  She marveled at the distance he made the fall and how he never returned to work.  He was a like a man possessed then, soaking up the history and hugging the old ladies sitting in the sun and giving back his own travel stories a barter for a bottle of wine.

He easily conveyed seeing the crazy men he’d met wielding machetes in Argentina and he traded for a place to sleep. He gestured widely, to create vivid stories of the hectic pace of the boat races and described the size and the engineering of the boat he’d built and sailed with his the crew along the same path as the World Cup race in San Francisco.  He shared a laugh while carefully constructed  characters and dangerous run ins with wild life for fresh crusty rolls and home made tarts .

Alone, for at ten summers,  he granted his adventurous tales during after dinner drinks with a few neighbors for a warm blanket and a quiet place in the barn to put his pounding head to rest after he’d taken more than his share of the grape to bed with him.

She read each brief missive over and over, and scanned them into her flash drive then touched them to her lips before burning them in the fireplace.

In the warmer months,  she ripped them into pieces and carefully dropped them into various refuse bins in the bathrooms of the cafes where she sat to write on mornings during the week.

It had been a long time since she had opened the box to trace the letters on the cork.

It had been a long time since she had tried to pull the spice of the wine to the back of her tongue.

It had been ages since she had touched that v in her neck where he used to touch her softly and kiss her after.

It had been a long, unforgettable summer again this year. And she knew the salty pangs of regret were standing at the ready if she let her guard down.

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Her children were growing and beautiful, her husband solid and strong.  They made her a better person than she was,  but it was one Italian summer that made her more than a mother and wife. 

 #for Reticent Mental Property. Picture credit to the vast internet reserve of red mailbox images.

Last Tango in Cullercoats

Such a beautiful truth, I could not resist. An exquisite experience, certainly grateful for knowing it more than once…

Sometimes, it's just a cigar

It is a common trope of sex writing to compare great sex to dancing, and what dance is more sensual or erotic than the Tango? What though when sex goes beyond the great, into the sublime, what then? A dance is a set of moves, rehearsed, practised, yes the performers may make it seem spontaneous but in fact even the tiniest gesture is pre planned and choregraphed.

I think this is the problem with not only a lot of sex writing but a lot of sex, people get stuck (not literally one hopes) in a certain set of moves, a set order to do things in. I see this sometimes working, first the oral, both ways, then a bit of fingering to ensure lubrication, then onto the main course. It is as if they attended this sex ed class. tick the right boxes and make sure you move smoothly from…

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The Waking

RMPthewaking

Waking with you in my head today, running around up there, making me think about things I like to do:  Undress, lie quietly listening to your breath while feeling the rise of your chest under my hand and the tucking of my nose into that warm curve under your jaw where I can actually feel the beat of your heart and involuntarily I begin to move my hips to your natural rhythm.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zyqt2avPkoA- Enrique Iglesias Don’t Tell me No

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As she sipped her coffee in Bogata she was surprised to see him slide into the seat across from her, a mischievous grin on his face and a guitar slung over his shoulder. 

 #for Reticent Mental Property image credit to the web, and music…always music somewhere.

He She

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His Ray bans sit on the bar top, shoved to the side to make room for his Stella.  She’s in the blue dress, the one that hugs her hips and rides up when she sits,and he likes that and how she sips her Sauvignon Blanc with one eye brow raised.

He’s facing the door.  She’s not.

He’s telling her about the latest deal and the jag of a boss he works with.  She’s thinking about his blue eyes and the way she made his legs shake when he came in her mouth in the parking lot at the pre-lunch-meeting.

He’s got a habit of looking at his timepiece a little too often.  She’s a bit distracted by his hands and wants them to settle in between her thighs.

He’s been out too late drinking Scotch the night before with a chatty bartender, Michelle he says, who serves a joke with each generous pour.   She’s  coming down off a racy email chat with a man who knows how to write.

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He thinks she might be the one.  She’s hoping he leaves her a mill in his will.  

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Altered mental states

RMPconduit

Imagination is powerful, and so is anticipation, as you found with the camera click the last time we were together, yes?

Share your rough, your gentle, the rhythmic spanking and deep kisses.  Offer your firm hand to curl around the back of my neck, your palm to press flat to the muscle of my thigh, your long fingers to wander though the waves of my response.

I will allow your touch to lead her,  your fingertips to press and circle,  hers to repeat.  Your hands may travel any path as you attempt to inflame.  And  all of this, all of the conversation before and the waiting until now, will pull the rise out of my ribs, the tense into my hips and spill the curve of each breast into her warm mouth.

I will joyfully offer my body as a stage, my skin and pulse and limbs in this demonstration of touch.

I will be your gift to give,  your earnest attempt to share with her what you see when you are with her.

I will watch as your eyes lock with hers as you find each other over me, through me.

I will model your lover,  will open and give just as she does when you claim her as your woman.   I cannot hold back in my role, and won’t  as I partake in the epic intimacy you create. Using oil and repetition, take us both to the edge of our minds and bodies; satisfy our human need for the healing power of skin on skin.

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Such a creative couple, those two.  Her intent?  Never interfere, only enhance.   

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Lunch

RMPlust

He met her for lunch.

She knew this was all over.

He wanted too much.

She asked for too little.

He wanted her thighs,  then her secrets, then her love.

She gave more than touch but  would not love-  would never love-  again.

He was a good man.

She was whatever he needed.

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She let him think she was broken. And walked. 

 

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